These are the pictures of contentment and peace.
Have you ever felt content?
It seems sudden to me...I do.
I can't say I don't worry about my housework, or money, or my family.
And yes I still think about those last 10 okay 20 pounds of baby fat...
that are slowly sliding off. I hope.
I am okay if my laundry goes unfolded.
I am happy if I can save money on groceries (thanks Shauntell!)
I am taking each moment of my children's lives as they come.
They Just grow to fast.
As for that pesky baby fat...I will get rid of it...but I still need to have a piece of chocolate.
I am okay with that.
For what seems like a long time.
I am not wishing to be some where else.
Be someone else.
Have someone else's money or success.
I woke up happy to just be.
SO what if my favorite jeans will have to wait.
SO what if I don't get to shower until noon.
I have all I need right now.
I only feel motivated to improve this renewed sense of life to ENJOY IT.
I want to make it better, strengthen it make it last.
I want to read with Madi longer, Play with Eleanor more.
And hold my little Owen forever.
Hugging and loving my husband always...
The moments are fleeting, and I have been trying too hard over time to push them on, saying, I can't wait until... instead of catching them, loving them and laughing at them.
Maybe this is the until for me...now! If so I am so glad!
I only have this life to get ready for the next why have I been so caught up getting to the until...
I suppose it would be easy to say I am content so, I am done.
NO this is not that kind of contentment.
I find this to be the "I have it good, I want this to be real."
I want to read, pray, and study...I don't want to coast anymore waiting for life to happen.
It is happening.
I am in it....I must love it.
Heavenly father has blessed me with this feeling of loving my life.
Loving who I am, who my children are and who my husband is.
I have changed in a way I cannot describe.
I want more joy.
I want to keep it.
I am content, but reaching for more of the stuff that brings real happiness.
5 comments:
so nice to hear things are going so well! what makes it even better is the song I had playing as I read this. John Schmidt's by moonlight
How sweet! I loved that post!
That was beautiful Amy. I love reading posts like that!
Very thoughtful and inspiring. It is so amazing to see how big they are all getting. I still remember when Madi was just a baby. They really do grow so fast.
Thanks for posting this, it was very touching! And so true. Your family is so sweet!
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